19. What Does the New Life Bring?

Although I had always been a doubter, I was now in a position to believe. I could not explain the fact that all my spiritual needs were satisfied in one fell swoop other than through God's work. As His child, I now began to explore this relationship and live from it. Today I declare this June 7, 2003 as my entry into the new life. It was the beginning of the first, partial death of my ego, my error "I am God" and its replacement with the truth "I am a child of God".

Since June 7, 2003, I have been learning to put into practice the love of God that I now have access to. Although everyone has the ability to love, they lack love, which they cannot produce themselves. On a physical level, we can all easily understand that everyone has the ability to breathe, but has to get the oxygen from a source outside themselves. It is the same with spiritual needs, for which we use the umbrella term "love". From the connection to God that I have now established, I can now learn to pass on God's love, even to people who do not seem lovable to me. This also includes no longer waiting to be loved by others.

This path together with my Heavenly Father is a liberating process. What makes it difficult, however, is the continued existence of the remnants of error in me. My remaining error must first become recognizable to me through difficulties so that I can then replace the cause - the self-deception - with the truth about myself. This is the Christian's battle of faith, because without my realization about myself, where I am still deceiving myself and where the truth still has to replace a lie, I cannot become completely free.

At this point, something is missing in the conventional Christian understanding of salvation. Due to man's ignorance of the functions of his spirit, of self-control, of innate error, Christians are essentially divided into two groups. This division can also be seen in other religions and ideologies. Superficially, we like to express this as "conservative" and "liberal". Ultimately, however, it doesn't matter at which end of the line you stand, whether on the far right or far left or even in the moderate center, you are just on the same line. You don't recognize the self-deception that leads one person in one direction and another in the other. But it is still the same self-deception in which everyone unconsciously (and for some, consciously) seeks their own. And as long as someone thinks they can do something for themselves, they are breaking the law of love. Because no creature can do anything for itself. So, neither can man. But in the error of his heart, he is convinced that he is doing something for himself.

Jesus came to nail the false "I am God" to the cross and create a new creature, a new life that functions again in the law of love. A life that is selfless, just as God and all His creation are.

I was born with the idea "I am God". Everything I did until June 7, 2003 came from selfishness. I did everything for myself and that is outside the law. Although I had also done many outwardly good deeds in the 39 years before that, the motivation was still wrong. It was always about me, even if some of it looked as if it was selfless. When I made my decision on June 7, 2003, an exchange took place. My previous life went to the cross and I was given a new life, the life of Jesus. This began the path for me to act out of the motivation of love.

It is important to understand: Only selfishness can come from error. Only love can come from truth. The law of nature makes this clear. Luke 6:44-45 describes it very simply: "Every tree is known by its own fruit. For figs are not gathered from thorns, nor grapes from bushes. A good man out of the good treasure of his heart brings forth good things; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart brings forth evil things..."

Through the exchange on the cross, I experienced forgiveness for my past 39 years. Forgiveness can only happen if the reason for the sin, the selfish act, is removed at the same time. This is the error in the heart - or as Jesus calls it, the evil treasure of the heart. Forgiveness can therefore only be achieved by exchanging the old life for the new life. Forgiving individual deeds without removing the reason for them would not be compatible with God's justice. This is why the sacrificial system was used in the Old Testament, which makes it clear: Only through the exchange of life, the source of deeds, is there justification and justice.

It is hopefully understandable that the exchange of life meant here is a spiritual act of faith and does not initially take place in physical reality. Jesus created the new life, it is real, but it will only be received outwardly and visibly by each individual at His return. Only then will we be completely transformed into the reality of the new life. Then we will actually be a new creature. Until then, we live in faith in the new life and it can only be transferred into our own lives through faith.

What does this exchange of faith mean in concrete terms? Faith needs substance, the spirit needs clear information to guide it. Two inner attitudes are required:

1. A clear conscience as far as the past is concerned. I have to believe that in the new life, I have never sinned or made mistakes. If I killed in the old life, broke the marriage vow, lied or did whatever, I didn't do it any more. Jesus has taken over. The old is no longer mine, it now belongs to Christ. He will decide about it in judgment. This is forgiveness from God's side. If someone continues to have thoughts of guilt, then they do not yet fully believe in the exchange of life. Then he still sees his old life as his own and holds on to past deeds as if they were still his. He has then not surrendered everything to Christ.

2. My past now belongs to Jesus. No one has harmed me in the past, is the information that I have to accept and believe inwardly so that I no longer see myself as a victim of others. No matter what I have experienced and what others have done to me, through the exchange it is no longer mine and no longer applied to me personally. This is forgiveness on my part. If someone still owes me something, if I think a person has harmed me in the past, then I am not yet in the new life of Jesus by faith.

The exchange of the old life with the new life of Jesus solves all human problems, which can be summarized in two categories: Self-accusation and other-accusation. A person either considers himself a victim of his own deeds or a victim of the deeds of others. Both are wrong, both come from self-deception and lead man to be his own enemy and thereby destroy himself.

June 7, 2003 is long gone and I have moved on in faith. The rest of the "I am God" must now give way step by step every day. Every day I examine myself with regard to the past day, from which source I have lived. I usually do this examination in nature together with my Heavenly Father, who must help me to recognize exactly where the self-deception was so that it can be replaced with the truth. So I test my thoughts by my actions and my motivation by my thoughts and the respective root, the lie or the truth about myself, by my motivation. I have to find out specifically where I have deceived myself so that I can replace the deception with the truth at precisely this point. I have to consciously see where I am playing God. I need to recognize how I can live a new life, knowing that I am a child of the Most High. As His child, I don't need anyone to serve me, fulfill anything for me or satisfy any need. I can only meet my needs myself by taking from God and passing on this love.

The following illustration shows the path of a person who, in the battle of faith, comes from the captivity of lies to the complete freedom of truth. Everyone must walk this path personally, which is why I used my photo. I hope one day to fully absorb the new life into my spirit through faith. Then no act of my fellow man can make me want to force others to do good. Such a child of my Heavenly Father I want to be, loving everyone and no longer practicing any form of coercion. That is the goal of liberation.

Now I am still on my way to this goal, which I am not striving for with my deeds, but through faith. My deeds are only the outward proof of my inner attitude. My good deeds can come from the wrong motivation, just like the bad ones. That is why I cannot do this without the help of my Heavenly Father, who assists me through His Holy Spirit. Step by step, I trust people less and less until one day I will trust God completely. In this state, I will no longer deceive myself and the law will be written in my heart. And this all happens through an inner process of faith and cooperation between me and God, because God does not control or force anyone. We can only place our trust in God ourselves. Therefore, salvation is only possible in cooperation between God and man.

To summarize, there are only two identities from which thoughts arise, namely either the lie "I am God" or the truth "I am a child of God". Since thoughts already begin unconsciously, I can only check which identity they come from when they become conscious to me. I can therefore recognize from my conscious thoughts whether I am mistaken or not. And only then do I have a choice as to whether I continue to "feed" my thoughts or not. If I recognize that thoughts come from self-deception, I can take steps to stop thinking them. The root is not always immediately recognizable, even if I already know that these thoughts come from the lie. It can sometimes take me days to discover the specific unconscious lie. And only when I have replaced it with the truth am I free of the problem.

So, it is not easy work within ourselves, but it is a liberating activity. I don't want to remain in my error, which makes life difficult for me, just because others do something bad to me or deny me what is good. It is not my fault that I have inherited the error, but by the grace of God I can do something to ensure that this lie no longer torments me.

Here are some concrete examples of where certain thoughts come from:

Obsessive thoughts - always come from lies. Thoughts of compulsion are always wrong. If you want to force someone or if you are angry with someone, then you are wrong. If you get angry with someone, you destroy yourself. If you are no longer in control of your own thoughts and act emotionally, then you are subject to coercion. Make a conscious effort to remind yourself that you are wrong as soon as you have a compulsive thought. No matter how right you actually are in the matter. No matter how wrong the other person has acted. Compulsion is always the result of self-deception.

Fearful thoughts - are always wrong. As soon as you feel fear, you need to ask yourself: "Wait, where am I going wrong? Am I playing God again?" Fear arises from trying to avoid something negative that is not under my control or management. Everyone has their own defined sphere of action that they cannot cross. This is easier to recognize on a physical level. No one tries to walk through a concrete wall, but uses the open door to get in or out of a room. In the physical world, you try to stay within the boundaries that you cannot cross. In the error of the mind, however, I do not see my spiritual frame. So I try the impossible, namely to control something that I cannot control. This applies to the life of my mother, my spouse, my children and even my own life. But this control is not within the scope of our possibilities. So we'd better not even try. Fear helps us to see the error and search for its root. Once it has been found and replaced with the truth, the fear is gone.

Pressure - in the body is the result of self-deception. The body reacts immediately to a negative unconscious thought and indicates the error. We should then give ourselves an account of what gave rise to the wrong thought so that we no longer pursue it, but think the truth instead.

Thoughts of guilt - are very harmful. Thoughts of guilt arise from the misconception that we had another choice when we acted wrongly. They arise because the consequences of this act are negative, not necessarily because we are sorry for the act. The error suggests that we have experienced a loss as a result of our actions. And since we are incapable of losing, we must therefore accuse ourselves. If I am a god, then I can also condemn, both myself and others. Thoughts of guilt cannot arise in a creature because creatures cannot pronounce judgment on themselves (or others). Nor can you suffer any personal loss if you see yourself as a child of God.

Loneliness - is a false conclusion. How can I ever feel lonely in the awareness of being a child of God? The thought: "I am all alone!" or "All my relatives have died or live elsewhere." or "I am bringing up my child all alone." or "I have no one to help me." cannot be right. These thoughts make you feel bad and damage your body. Thoughts of loneliness arise from the misconception that "others have to be there for me". The body and the mind should help us to stop believing these thoughts, because they are not true. We can never be alone; God is always present and why should I consider myself lonely in the awareness of His presence?

Rejection - leads to strong thoughts of self-destruction. As a god, we demand worship and if we are denied this, we cannot accept it. We see it as a personal loss when others do not praise, appreciate or recognize us. But who am I to make this demand of my fellow human beings?

When parents reject their children, the children perceive this as a major trauma. This leads the affected children down a very difficult, painful path with many problems and illnesses throughout their lives. Without the grace of God and the realization of the truth that my parents and other fellow human beings owe me nothing, I am condemned to destroy myself step by step. Therefore, we should know the truth about ourselves and see that all our personal claims on others are unjustified. Only the truth can prevent us from destroying ourselves just because our parents made (sometimes big) mistakes.

Thoughts of hopelessness - are wrong. They arise from the misconception that I can calculate the future. They arise because, as God, I know what will come of this situation. But do I really know that?

The thought of having no way out leads many people to depression and self-destruction, even suicide. And then, as a help and realization, we must become aware that everything that leads to self-destruction, that triggers a negative emotion, can certainly not correspond to the truth. Even if we cannot immediately see where we are deceiving ourselves, we should stop harboring the thought that there is no way out. Our Heavenly Father can help us with this if we ask Him for help to correct us. God cannot think in my place, but He can give me the appropriate information that will set me free if I take it in.

It is undeniable that certain circumstances cause us to react negatively. On the other hand, other circumstances cause us to react joyfully. So how do we know whether this joy and good feeling come from the truth or from a lie? Certainly, even in the error of our heart, we always feel joy when we evaluate something as a personal gain. This reaction does not harm the body at that moment. It is only when we lose this gain that damage occurs in the body.

This means that we cannot be sure that we are in the truth when we have positive emotions, because everything that error sees as a gain triggers a good electrical impulse that is appropriate for the body and therefore creates a pleasant feeling. However, if the circumstances are bad and do not meet our needs and we still feel good because we are not relying on the circumstances but on our Heavenly Father, we can be sure that this reaction comes from the truth.

Our Savior, Jesus Christ, did not have a single negative reaction in His thoughts during the difficult circumstances of His life, during the hostility, false accusations, assassination attempts, mockery, while He was beaten and then nailed to the cross. Thus, He did not inwardly resist all the evil done to Him, knowing that the perpetrators were doing it to His Heavenly Father, who would judge the injustice. Consequently, He always had positive emotions during all these difficult situations. He never made himself feel bad through his thinking. I would like that kind of thinking very much. I strive for it and I hope you do too.

However, our true identity also gives rise to certain negative emotions, which is why we have to cry from time to time, for example. We also see this in the life of Jesus. How can we distinguish between truly negative and mistakenly negative?

Here, too, we need a clear standard to be able to separate lies from truth. As our reactions begin in the subconscious, we can use the effect to determine whether the reaction comes from the truth or from error. The following rule applies: anything that takes control away from me comes from self-deception. Anything that is negative and does not take control away from me can come from the truth.

I also have to check my motivation: Is it about me or about my Heavenly Father? We can also perceive and feel the negative in selflessness, but is it out of true compassion for God, whose creation is being destroyed? However, if it is about me and I fall into self-pity, then this is certainly always done out of error, because it destroys us. The difference is not always immediately recognizable, but with time you get practice in self-knowledge and can distinguish better and better whether you are striving for something for yourself out of error or for the Heavenly Father and His creation, i.e. thinking from the truth.

In truth, we can accept the injustice done, the violence, the taking of our goods, our children, etc. and even feel compassion for the perpetrators, as our Savior expressed: "Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do". (Luke 23:34). This attitude requires the attainment of perfection in the truth. I believe in it and want to be able to live it one day.

With the right identity as a child of God, I can completely change my thinking - and solve all problems over time. I think it's good that everything can be reduced to a single point, namely where a person begins. That is his identity. This is the all-important point in a person's life.

What it ultimately comes down to is understanding this point and deciding with conviction to give up the old life with the false identity and replace it with the new life begotten by God. No one can be forced in their spirit to do something; everyone can only want to achieve it voluntarily through faith. And this is a good thing, because our Creator made us to be self-directed.

We only have one choice, namely to leave the old life. However, we should not follow the example of religions and ideologies that want to reform and improve the old life. It is not a solution to attach importance to outward appearances when the problem lies within the human being. A person will only accept the new life if he is fed up with the agony of the old life; when he is convinced that he can no longer do anything with his old life. We need a new life in our innermost being, which can only be attained through faith. Because man's need is within himself, it can only be solved and remedied there. External changes are completely inadequate. Washing a bottle on the outside when the dirt is on the inside is not wise and will not clean the bottle.

The crisis of the end times, which I am convinced has already begun, will divide humanity into two classes. Not into rich and poor, not into important or insignificant, this division already exists. Humanity will be divided into free and captive. The conflict in this world is about freedom. Where coercion is used, where the spirit of the individual is not taken seriously, love is not present. The Bible says it very clearly in 2 Corinthians 3:17: "For the LORD is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the LORD is, there is freedom."

I have resolved to become completely free inside and to live from the spirit of God. If you have freedom yourself, you will be able to give it to everyone and not try to restrict, patronize or dictate to anyone. This is clear proof that you are living in the truth. Where there is love, there is freedom. Fear can no longer occur there; it has been eradicated. As a result, the behavior of such a person can no longer be influenced by other people. No matter what hardship comes his way, he remains true to the principle of love.

We will face adversity and everyone will then visibly prove what they are made of. The free man will prove this by calmly and confidently doing what he believes to be right according to his conscience and not what someone wants to force on him. Those who live a lie will in turn fight coercion with coercion. Force with force, injustice with injustice, lie with lie and deceit with deceit. In this way, man proves the error of his own heart. We can only fight coercion with freedom. We can only overcome evil with good. We can only eradicate lies with the truth.

In the end, the two groups will differ very clearly. It will become clear whose spiritual child everyone is. We will soon have reached the point where each person must make a final decision. Each person is still given the choice of either becoming free or remaining trapped in their innate dead life. What do you choose today?